Monday, November 02, 2009
They said I m too emotionally-attached to my students.
Perhaps I am.
NO, i think I am!!!
I guess that's the reason why i always land myself in dilemma situations and giving myself unnecessary stress.
Sometimes i wonder, after doing so much for my students, do they appreciate it at the end of the day?
Maybe its time to start detaching myself from them bit by bit....
Was annoyed by 2 girls today.
They had been pestering me for days to change class, i agreed on the condition that it has to be a one-to-one swap with another class. Only 1 of them managed to find someone to swap with her. So, the other girl came back pestering me again! She started to 撒娇 and that makes me shivers (she is not cute at all!). When she knows it doesn't work, she started tearing and jumping like a spoilt brat! That really puts me off, eveyone was looking over and they must be thinking i bullied her or made her CRY!!!
Come on, grow up, u r not a 3 yr old kid crying for the sweet that your mum refuses to give u. Childish act....
Wow, can't wait for the Korean movie "My girlfriend is an agent" to be out this week!
Sweet Candies....
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Sunday, November 01, 2009
2 weeks, it has only been 2 weeks.
But, everything seems to be different, there had been changes...
The feeling is different too.
What exactly happened???
Questioning myself:
To what extend will i go to help someone i care for?
Going against my own conscience? Going against my integrity?
I keep asking myself if that was too overboard?
What is done cannot be undone, i just hope all i did is WORTH!
Watched "My sister's keeper" over the weekends.
Having read the novel, i was so looking foward to this movie.
Learning from past precedents, i lowered my expectaion for the movie & i enjoyed it.
Prepare tissues if you are catching the movie!
Here comes November, and the end of a week.
I want a short get-away from Singapore to Bintain or Genting or cruise.
I need a break!!!
10.52pm, what shall i do before its bedtime?
Sweet Candies....
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Saturday, October 24, 2009
Final decree is out, i m sad and at the same time happy with it.
Suddenly, i wish that i have the power to determine Fate.
It will be best if i can save both, but in the situation if i can only choose one, what will be my decision?
Nothing is bias-free in this world, so am I.
My heart will tend to sway towards 1 party.
If i can only pull 1 to safety, i will save him and sacrifice the other.
However, this is totally impossible in reality.
我还是接受事实，面对现实吧...
I am now praying hard, hoping to see the outcome i want eventually. I hope u put in some effort and push yourself.
Another depressing incident....
During Welcome Orientation this week, i was depressed by some remarks made by the students.
When they knew i was their program manager, they gave me this doubtful look and said "那么年轻啊?"
At the back of thier mind, they must be thinking,
- can she be trusted?
- can she perform the role as my program manager well?
- will she be able to provide me with all the help and support i need during my studies here?
Well, when i was going to bed and recalled that expression of theirs, i was sad and i lost confidence in myself.
Come on, i m older than most of u, in what position are u to doubt me?
I shall prove myself!
5.25pm, blogging away in the office on a Saturday.
Sweet Candies....
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
A Sunday....
Today, I was at Cathay cineplex.
Once again, i went for a movie alone, i want to be alone.
Bought a 10.50am movie ticket for Haeundae (korean movie), bought myself a cup of hot mocha and went into the cinema hall.
I chose a row which is not occupied and the middle seat, the feeling is just like i m the only person in the cinema, feels good haa...
Well, i guess i chose that movie for the reason that "i know i will definitely cry in this movie". True enough, together with my own mixed emotions and the touching scenes from the movie, it provided me with a good channel to cry out...
I cried hard, when i went into the washroom, found my eyes red!
When i left the washroom, walked out of Cathay into the bright sunlight, putting on my sunglasses, i felt "light".
The crying made me feel better.
From there, i went to Subway to grab my brunch and head over to office to continue with the never ending work load....
Hmm, the movie is nice. The movie used the year 2004 Tsunami incident to film a movie of mega-tsunami hitting a coastal area of Korea. Its always during life & death situation when people learn to cherish their loved ones and realise their true love, but it may be too late...
Busy weeks ahead, orientation coming next week. A new batch of students is coming.
Cravings for steamboat, looking forward to steamboat on the following Mon!
Sweet Candies....
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Sunday, October 04, 2009
Somebody, save me!!!
I thought i can control it but it is running too wildly and fast for me to get a grip on it before it lost control.
I seem to be digging my own grave...
I should have pulled the rein tight in the very beginning, its too late.
Every single thing just affects my mood, i can't imagine what will happen if this goes on.
I have to stop it no matter what.
我已经中“毒”了。
是一种没有解药的毒。
毒性有多深我不知道，一天天的等吧；也许毒性很快就发作，也许会痊愈。。。
It will be Monday in 35 mins time, another busy week to go.
There will only be me and the temp girl in the office tmr, manager on leave & EC on training, hope everything will be fine in office, no problem studnets (keeping my fingers cross).
Back to my CSI season 7....
Sweet Candies....
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4th day of October, counting down to my best friend's wedding on the 10th!!!
My 43.3B class group presentation on Fri.
I like to see them coming in their business attire, looks so good!
Their exam is coming soon, hope they r working hard.
Happy event on one side but troubled at the other end.
I think its time to stop this before it is too late.
I have no idea why is all this happening and it seems to be heading for the wrong direction.
I must do something to stop all these.
气我自己，为什么答应自己的事总是做不到？
每一次，我都背弃对自己许下的诺言。
我不应该有这种感觉的。。。
再这样下去，受伤的也许是我自己。
真希望有个人告诉我该怎么做。
该停止了，要不然就太迟了。
或许，一开始就是个错误。
Its 1.35am, i m still wide awake, what should i do?
Planning to go into office to do some work.
Another boring week has past....
Sweet Candies....
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Searching within my heart...
There r lots of answers i m looking for deep in my heart, i have all sorts of questions running in my mind right now.
Hoping to find the best answer.
Will i be able to find the answer i want?
Am i just making things complicated?
I guess everything needs time...but how much time?
寻找心中的答案...
Signing off at 12:12AM, time for bed (if i can fall asleep).
Sweet Candies....
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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Please go to the link below to vote for JJ at the annual "Singapore Hits Award".
http://www.singaporehitawards.sg/awards2.htm
Quite disappointed that he was not nominated for "最佳演绎男歌手" category.
Support JJ!!
JJ is nominated for:
1. 最佳本地作曲 - 小酒窝
2. 最佳本地歌手奖
3. 最受欢迎男歌手奖
Sweet Candies....
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