Final decree is out, i m sad and at the same time happy with it. Suddenly, i wish that i have the power to determine Fate. It will be best if i can save both, but in the situation if i can only choose one, what will be my decision? Nothing is bias-free in this world, so am I. My heart will tend to sway towards 1 party. If i can only pull 1 to safety, i will save him and sacrifice the other. However, this is totally impossible in reality. 我还是接受事实，面对现实吧...
I am now praying hard, hoping to see the outcome i want eventually. I hope u put in some effort and push yourself.
Another depressing incident.... During Welcome Orientation this week, i was depressed by some remarks made by the students. When they knew i was their program manager, they gave me this doubtful look and said "那么年轻啊?" At the back of thier mind, they must be thinking, - can she be trusted? - can she perform the role as my program manager well? - will she be able to provide me with all the help and support i need during my studies here? Well, when i was going to bed and recalled that expression of theirs, i was sad and i lost confidence in myself. Come on, i m older than most of u, in what position are u to doubt me? I shall prove myself!
5.25pm, blogging away in the office on a Saturday.
Sweet Candies....
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
A Sunday....
Today, I was at Cathay cineplex. Once again, i went for a movie alone, i want to be alone. Bought a 10.50am movie ticket for Haeundae (korean movie), bought myself a cup of hot mocha and went into the cinema hall. I chose a row which is not occupied and the middle seat, the feeling is just like i m the only person in the cinema, feels good haa... Well, i guess i chose that movie for the reason that "i know i will definitely cry in this movie". True enough, together with my own mixed emotions and the touching scenes from the movie, it provided me with a good channel to cry out... I cried hard, when i went into the washroom, found my eyes red! When i left the washroom, walked out of Cathay into the bright sunlight, putting on my sunglasses, i felt "light".
The crying made me feel better.
From there, i went to Subway to grab my brunch and head over to office to continue with the never ending work load....
Hmm, the movie is nice. The movie used the year 2004 Tsunami incident to film a movie of mega-tsunami hitting a coastal area of Korea. Its always during life & death situation when people learn to cherish their loved ones and realise their true love, but it may be too late...
Busy weeks ahead, orientation coming next week. A new batch of students is coming.
Cravings for steamboat, looking forward to steamboat on the following Mon!
Sweet Candies....
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Sunday, October 04, 2009
Somebody, save me!!! I thought i can control it but it is running too wildly and fast for me to get a grip on it before it lost control. I seem to be digging my own grave... I should have pulled the rein tight in the very beginning, its too late. Every single thing just affects my mood, i can't imagine what will happen if this goes on. I have to stop it no matter what.
It will be Monday in 35 mins time, another busy week to go. There will only be me and the temp girl in the office tmr, manager on leave & EC on training, hope everything will be fine in office, no problem studnets (keeping my fingers cross).
Back to my CSI season 7....
Sweet Candies....
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4th day of October, counting down to my best friend's wedding on the 10th!!!
My 43.3B class group presentation on Fri. I like to see them coming in their business attire, looks so good! Their exam is coming soon, hope they r working hard.
Happy event on one side but troubled at the other end. I think its time to stop this before it is too late. I have no idea why is all this happening and it seems to be heading for the wrong direction. I must do something to stop all these.
