Final decree is out, i m sad and at the same time happy with it. Suddenly, i wish that i have the power to determine Fate. It will be best if i can save both, but in the situation if i can only choose one, what will be my decision? Nothing is bias-free in this world, so am I. My heart will tend to sway towards 1 party. If i can only pull 1 to safety, i will save him and sacrifice the other. However, this is totally impossible in reality. 我还是接受事实，面对现实吧...
I am now praying hard, hoping to see the outcome i want eventually. I hope u put in some effort and push yourself.
Another depressing incident.... During Welcome Orientation this week, i was depressed by some remarks made by the students. When they knew i was their program manager, they gave me this doubtful look and said "那么年轻啊?" At the back of thier mind, they must be thinking, - can she be trusted? - can she perform the role as my program manager well? - will she be able to provide me with all the help and support i need during my studies here? Well, when i was going to bed and recalled that expression of theirs, i was sad and i lost confidence in myself. Come on, i m older than most of u, in what position are u to doubt me? I shall prove myself!
5.25pm, blogging away in the office on a Saturday.
