A time for lots of eating (pineapple tarts & bak Kwa & kueh-lu-lu), ang pow collection and bomdarded with qs: "When are you getting married?"
Some updates on work, its quite quiet in sch as the students have went back for CNY. Good time for me to clear back-logs and do follow-ups. Share a funny incident: That day after their exam, my student came to look for me and said he wanted to change his name, Phil, to another name. It took me some time to understand why, "Phil" sounds like "Fail", i burst out laughing, 真没形象! I don't know if i m envy with my colleagues, at least 85% of my colleagues in my dept are married. In the group i always have lunch with, 3 of the girls are of my age n r married and 2 of them already has a child!! Most of the time, their conversation topic will either be their child or husband or wedding or marriage life, i just can't join into the conversation.
Suddenly, i feel so empty again, see no meaning in life, my boring life as usual. After work, i go home totally drained, don't even have the energy to enjoy my fave pastime, watching show. However, whenever time permits i will still squeeze in time for 1/2 episodes. My good frens are all busy with their work, love life n own life and doesn't have the time to bother about me n care for me. My 3 best frens are dirfting futher away from me. Violet is getting married this yr, Jean & June will be flying overseas to further their studies n perhaps even work there for some time. I can start feeling the emptiness and seems like i m all alone in this world...
为什么我总是做不到？I thought i have put it behind but it doesn't seem like. I have mentioned that one of my lecturer has the same name as him. I m working closely with this lecturer but whenever i call my lecturer name, my mind will wonder off to him.... I just want to get myself out of this!
